I think this was the first dream that made me want to not wake up. But according to on online dream dictionary, it means I'm insecure and having inner turmoil. I'm also having problems reaching my goals. Which is all very true. ._.; Shall post my dream after finishing my homework.

My sister, nephew, and I were at this small carnival-type thing on Maui. My sister and I watched as Makoa, my nephew played on the rides. I saw this guy, Evan, there. I guess you could say we're friends. We said hi before we had to leave. On the way home I looked out the window and saw Evan running, racing us home. He was running so fast, the rolling backpack he had had sparks flying from its wheels. I laughed as we beat him to the house. I was surprised to see that he was staying at a house across the street from ours. We went home just so that my sister could get something but I needed to get out of the car to dispose of a...small bag of crap. Why I had it, I don't know. I also wanted to wave to him. haha So after that was done, I woke up.

I was sitting on the couch very late at night while my parents were asleep with a pack of cigarettes in my hand. I smoked several of them and fell asleep. I woke up when it was still early in the morning and everyone was asleep. I felt really drowsy and lazy. I walked to the bathroom and saw my 3 year old nephew. He said something about something being stinky and I agreed with him, knowing it was me. Later my parents found out I had been smoking and I felt really guilty. They didn't punish me much at all, except they rarely talked to me.

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Even when I woke up in real life I felt guilty even though I have never smoked in my life and don't plan to. It was really strange. ._.;

It was 6:00 on the evening of my birthday party and Chihiro just came over. I was excited so then we went to the table and I saw my mom wrapping something. I remembered that I didn't wrap Chihiro's party favors so I rushed inside the house to do it while she waited outside. I grabbed a box of cereal and some yummy candy and wrapped it up. Somehow I ended up on the computer playing MapleStory and playing with my phone. I'd just defeated a huge slime monster when my mom who was washing the dishes started yelling at me to turn down the noise (my phone was making a hell of a lot of noise with its music and just got louder the more I tried to muffle the sound). I got mad at her for yelling at me but when I looked at the clock and it was 9:00pm. I was all like, "WTF?!" and rushed out to give Chihiro her party favors.

I was in the car on my way home with swollen eyes as if I'd been crying. I don't remember crying or who was driving the car. From inside the moving car I magically hung clothes on people's clotheslines. I don't get it either. So when I got home I didn't see Chihiro and I started crying and yelling at my dad. "Where is she?! Why didn't you tell me she left?!!" I was kicking and slapping him when I found out she hadn't left.

I woke up and shed a few tears. I felt so bad for having treated my best friend and dad that way, even in my dreams. Does that mean I'm taking advantage of people? Am I that addicted to MapleStory? Am I that careless?

I was in a game much like Maple Story, but in my house. I carried a big water gun and slowly walked to the hallway and listened before the bathroom door. I hear a sawing noise and saw a monster saw off part of a tree. I was too afraid to attack it so I passed it and went on to my parent's room. I saw an even bigger meaner monster that had a mouth of fire when upset. I shot water at it hoping to weaken it but it just got angrier so I ran away, taking the person that I found inside with me. We decided to team up against the monster and went back after my HP and water gun was full. We walked back to the room while I shot more water at it and its mouth.

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I had a boyfriend. Wait..*laughs hysterically* Okay. So yes, I had a boyfriend. *snickers* He was really tall and kinda quiet. I don't remember his name so I'll call him Fred. In school we would like IM or text or whatever you want to call it each other by writing on a sheet of paper. I don't really get it either. Anyway, my class was in the locker room so I changed to my normal clothes but I couldn't find this blue shirt that I was wearing over my other clothes. For some reason I must've done something worth celebrating because a red gown and a red one of those graduation caps was put on me. I went outside to take it off and put it in my bag. I got a message on my sheet of paper from Fred saying I looked nice. I looked around and saw him across the field and we smiled at each other. I messaged him back and thanked him. School ended and so we all left. Oddly, Fred and I didn't hug or say bye to each other or anything when we parted. I was a tiny bit disappointed but I was fine with it. My mom picked me up and dropped me off by the band room for practice and I found my blue shirt in the cupholder. How it got there, I have no idea. So I met up with my friend Chelsea and we found my other friends Chihiro, Stacey, and Sarah in front of our old math class room and the cafeteria. In real life that room and the cafeteria aren't in front of each other. So we find Jessie, another one of our friends working with the math teacher. I laughed because it looked like they were playing with blocks. Chelsea, Stacey, Chihiro, Sarah, and I sat next to the cafeteria door where we found two college-aged (?) girls that seemed to know everyone except me. One tried to guess my name but was way off. She said a name that sounded exotic or foreign and I couldn't stop laughing.

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Fred and I were at my house when my dad came home. He didn't seem too happy about Fred but said nothing. Later Fred was a big monster kinda thing. I don't know. haha But anyway, some people hired by my dad I guess tried throwing things at Fred. I screamed trying to tell them not to hurt him. I looked at my dad with tears in my eyes, trying to talk to him.

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My friends and several other people were in Oahu. We stood in a game room. It was something like Fun Factory but with much less games and brightness. The room was somewhat dull and the games looked old. My friends played the games while I watched. I saw a girl that had betrayed me in the past and watched her play. We smiled nervously at each other. Then we left our hotel rooms, this time I was in a different group of people. A few of the girls wanted to rob a bank. They made one of my friends go with them. I was somewhat shocked but went with some other friends to Morning Glory. I looked for a belated birthday present for a friend and saw a cute clipboard thing with other stuff that came with it. I didn't look to closely but took it to the cash register anyway. The price was over $9 and I was like "What?!" and asked if I could not buy it and look around some more. I saw some cute handbags just outside the door and wanted to get one. I found a cute Hello Kitty (um, Hello Kitty in a Morning Glory store?) purse and saw it was about $16.50 and pondered whether or not I should buy it. Another friend pointed out another adorable bag that was smaller but was only $4.50 and could even turn into a jacket. The friend who the gift was for saw it while she was talking to us and I was a little frustrated because she saw what I wanted to get for her.